With that said, today I went out for my first run in four weeks. No, the run wasn't doctor approved and I wasn't positive that it was a good thing to do, but mentally I had to try it. I promised myself I would stop with any really sharp, horrible pain. I'm pretty sure that once I was thinking that that type of pain could possibly happen I probably should have made the decision not to try it yet. But I did.
Now, I'm guessing you are you expecting to me to say I flew like the wind, soared through the streets with a smile on my face and was brought to tears by the warm breeze whisking through my hair?
Absolutely-NOT! The first thing I started thinking was "Am I doing the right thing? How do I know? How bad should it hurt? I felt that twinge-did you feel that twinge? How bad of a twinge should you stop yourself from running? Should I call the Doctor and make sure I couldn't have made it worse? Will they do another xray? Will they do another MRI? I better make sure to walk in between this run." I started thinking about my first runs and then I thought about Dina who was just starting out again after not running for quite some time. This was hard.
It took work, a lot of work, to get where I was and I realized in that moment, that the day-by-day worry of mileage, who I was running with, where I was running and pace blah blah, I lost the appreciation of all the hard work, sweat and sometimes tears it took me to get there. There being a place where I could confidently call myself a runner. I realized that part of my rut is the feeling of being humbled by my injury. Now, to many, I may not be the best runner, the fastest runner. I have never placed in a race and I'm pretty sure I'm not going to be the next BQ'er BUT I worked hard to get where I was at and I'm proud of it!
So, here I am again feeling like a beginner and as much as I hate it, I love it. I'm not pain free so I am going to take it very easy. I did only 2 miles today at an extremely slow pace. I'm confused on what to do next but I will ask tons of questions tomorrow at PT and I would like to pick your brains also! I'm happy I got out there even though it wasn't pretty...it was a start..and you have to start somewhere.
1. When you had your first run after an injury did the injured area feel sore? Is this a good, bad, ugly or normal thing?
2. Besides ice, anti-inflammatory pills, stretching and rest do you have any other suggestions?
3. Do the twinges ever totally go away?
4. Should it hurt? (I think I know what you'll say to this)
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