I've been frustrated lately because the training for the marathon has become more demanding and so has life...in fun ways. Its summer, I am home with the kids, friends want to go out, play dates, summer concerts, the beach, pool, relaxing. Aside from the fun stuff, I also have chores, errands, and the children that don't always want to cooperate...oh yeah and that thing called sleep. Remember that?
What's been frustrating is I felt annoyed that it was becoming so difficult. I was trying to fit runs in when they really weren't the best times for me and my body. I wasn't getting enough sleep. I've been trying to settle our home and get rid of "stuff" that we don't need....I just felt like --why the hell is no one else seeing how difficult this goal is? Why is no one helping me?? Why isn't Scott realizing how hard this is? Why isn't my mom just offering to babysit a day lol...without me asking lol?
okay so what does this have to do with the run?
As I set out for the run I said to myself "it is okay that you do five". It is already 90 and to fit the eight in I would have had to go at a faster pace. I was okay with it and then compromised with myself that I would do the Cordwood and Harbor Hill roads to make up for the lost three. I promised myself that no matter how slow, I would not stop. I would run every inch of the hills. So I finished the first hill, the second, the third, the fourth and then came to the last long annoying one...I was two to three feet away from finishing my mini-goal (I usually make a little mini goal for every run...a certain pace, try not to stop for the bathroom, watch form etc) when a guy that TOTALLY didn't need to pull out right away, did and cut me off with his truck. I was soooo annoyed...thinking really guy? You needed to pull out in front of me? You couldn't let me finish the 20 more steps to reach my goal? ....
That's when I had a little moment and realized. This is life. This guy had no idea of my goal. This guy isn't thinking about my goals. This guy isn't running up a redonkulous hill in 90 degree weather, he has his own agenda. It would have been courteous for him to let me go...but he didn't
and that's life. I can either sit here and get pissed
wait and keep going.
So what I realized (whew..very long winded I'm sorry lol), is that no one else is going to know your goals, care about your goals, protect your goals like you do. You can share your goals and people can support you but when things get difficult you might have to pause, wait , redefine, revise and then keep working towards them. Never lose them , never let the things that try to get in the way of them distract you.
What are your major goals?
What are your mini goals?
What distracts you most from your goals?
How do you get back on track?